Ive been sleepy for the past 3 months...
Workin two jobs just to barely get by..
My girl said she unhappy, we sat and talked about it,
She listed all the reasons why.
Runnin through my head during that,
All the tears I that shed that morning.
Had to take a lunch break to tell my bestfriend goodbye,
I cried all the way back to work and I'm still mourning.
That was just a year ago,
Laid his daughter to rest about 6 months after that.
Still had to go back to work...
Then dropped another album after that.
Processing my own feelings not really my strong suit,
Trynna be there for El Dirty.. he just lost his pops.
Trynna be there for will.. he lost his pops and his mom's too.
Me and my brothers losin the things that we love most,
Shit can't be fixed wit a double tap on a post.
I gotta do better bein present for my love,
But If I aint present for myself I can't appreciate who was.
Im Gracious...... and ungrateful
Im serene ..... and still hateful.
Hate is a strong word I articulate a bench press..
So my personal anthem can lift every voice.
Who I'm with in the process is an honor and a privilege,
But me not treatin you well comes off as a choice.
And its multiple... a test of consideration...
Ask yourself what were my other options,
It's a wolf among us every decision you make feel like the whole world watchin.
I vow to be better but I make sure we good first,
Ima be here beside you until my hip hurts.
I'll put on a fake smile until my lip burst,
Cause I can promise when we stick together it gets better before worse.
BUT when it gets worse.. we can't bail on the play,
We gotta stay the course.. we can't throw it away.
All I know is if I'm working this hard I'd rather struggle by myself,
Not with someone who feels like they in the way.
Can you blame me... ask anyone else,
Taraji P. I'll do bad all by myself.
It's time we get rid of this potential make it kinetic,
I don't like the look of it but I love the aesthetic.
Thinkin back on our inception askin if I should regret it,
But me stayin solid is the main trait I can credit.
I aint force mfs to be on bitch ass shit,
When close ppl see you as a threat that's as bitch as it get.
So much we done learned almost too much we done seen,
Ginobli off the bench now ima star for the team.
And I play that role well cause of my broad knowledge,
I translate well what I learned in solace.
Gotta have more conversations,
Our minds are too dangerous to stay in solitary confinement.
Addicted to improvement always goals to work to,
Shit give me a rush like the lines that my brother do.
And I still love him. Sex drugs and rockin hoes,
A Rollin stone if you never heard of him.
I can't judge niggas who success I aspire for,
It doesnt do me justice that much I can assure.
What all this gotta do with my openin few statements,
Backtrack 8 bars we gotta have these conversations.
Not talkin at all can be worse than sayin too much,
Wouldn't you rather be too in tuned than way too outta touch.
What's missin is more important than pride or some ego,
You can bring it witchu just keep that shit in check.
I understand we got our issues about us,
But always ask yourself is it worth losin ya self respect.

I say no..